can I like not be fat anymore or
It’s all in God’s hands now. All I have is my faith, in the end I’ll just fade as your best & worst memories. I wont bother you anymore, I promise. I’ll stop trying, like you wanted..
Goodbye my loves, I love you - don’t forget that.
Distance makes the heart grow fonder. Maybe you’ll realize, maybe you won’t. I promise I love you forever, but I won’t promise I’ll be here whenever you think it’s your call. Take your time, even if it’s in a different lifetime. I love you, and care for you. I know your guards up, but I can’t help that. I know we don’t know what to do, but all I know is that within any decisions - there is always a way to keep it better. I’ll be patient, but just know I love you.
Goodnight, sweet dreams my love. Maybe in another time, I’m sorry too. XOXO
P.S No one will ever understand how crazy I am for you. Our crazy, rocky, loving relationship makes us part of who we are - regardless it brings me love and joy, no matter what the mistakes are. I may have a 100 reasons to complain, but I have millions of reasons to stay and love you. It’s hard times like this where I crave for your warmth. I want you to hold me tight, never let me go. If I have to fight for us with every ounce of me, then I shall will. If I have to annoy you to tell you I love you, I will forever. You taught me faith, love, hope, knowing rocky obstacles happen and in the end we love each other. Please take care, even though I’m not by your side rn. I love you, Clyde - forever, til the casket drops.
Things will be better. Maybe not now, but it’ll pass through. I love you, but maybe I’ll just let you keep your time. I’ll be here, but I can’t promise for how long.
You tell me I’m beautiful and I should always feel that way towards you. But tbh, I feel like I have to compete with everything when it comes to you. That’s why I get all dressed, I wanna get skinny. All the things you make me feel it lowers my self esteem. I don’t feel confident. You used to make me feel so beautiful, now I feel so vulnerable & ugly. I didn’t do anything to lose all the trust, and loyalty. To be honest, I’ve never felt so alone. I feel really alone, and it just sucks.
I can wear as much make up & wear the finest things, but even that can’t even make me feel beautiful again. I want to feel on top of the world again, I really do.